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Read moreI wrote this in 2014, and just stumbled on it. Interesting, no? (We never had sex, but she still shows up in my various feeds.)
Questions i anticipate(d, years ago, but never got, because i got a slew of different ones)
Read moreI was wrong about the questions my kid would ask
Anticipation
Read moreFound poem in “The Ethical Slut”: many good ways to stay safe. Hold structure fairly.
Custody of the eyes
Read moreRethinking an old concept
Ghosting, repetition, and my pattern with women
Read moreI experience connections as deep and real, but they end not in intentional closure but in disappearance. This is my compulsive repetition of courting and failing to avoid abandonment.
A direct desire letter to sydney
Read moreA candid message to Sydney, distinguishing between my general desire for cunnilingus and my specific desire for her, while framing it carefully to avoid unwelcome intrusion.
Sydney
Read moreIs delightful. Delicious. And lovely.
Sex work and childhood inauthenticity
Read moreI had an epiphany connecting my engagement with sex workers — and my uncertainty about Margot’s performativity — to my childhood in a ‘funhouse of distortion,’ raised to believe my father was straight. Wondering whether Margot is real or performing repeats the same psychic wound: never being able to trust what I saw or was told.
